I am a divorced, 43 year old mother of 2 boys,   and my construction materials business tanked in the last 2 years.  I have closed my warehouse, laid off my employees, and have become an independent sales rep.  I've also made little-to-no-money!  I have 2 beautiful sons, and my youngest has Down Syndrome.  I live in a small town with little-to-no social life, because I have practically zero single friends.  I hate living here, and can't wait to get out.  I recently broke up with my latest boyfriend, long distance as usual.  It was definitely for the best, and I realize that I need to change myself and my situation before I have another relationship.  My oldest son is a competitive swimmer on track for a scholarship.  My 13 year old with Down's is an angel, a joy, and they are both my sanity.  My family relationships are difficult; it doesn't help that money is such a stressful situation right now...I feel like I'm buried in debt.  I have very few friends here due to an extremely vinidictive ex-husband.  I am a good person, and ready to make a change...take my life back.  I love to work out, read, watch sports, cook, laugh and have fun!

I grew up with an abusive, alcoholic father and a co-dependent mother.  We were poor, and I could never bring friends home due to our living situation.  I had very few friends, and kept the situation at home to myself.  This made me a very guarded person...I have a hard time sharing too much of myself.  I married young, of course a verbally and emotionally abusive man.  He is a very jealous, insecure individual who put me down constantly to make himself feel better.  I developed an eating disorder and several stress-related health disorders.  I finally left him at 35 and got healthy.  I've overcome a lot of my issues with my past, but feel I still have a few things to overcome to truly achieve my potential, my goals, my happiness.

I want to improve both my life and my kids' lives.  I want to get out of debt, pay my mother back anything I owe her, and be able to move out of Tupelo.  I want to enjoy my job, to do something creative.  I want to finally write the book I've been working on, get my modeling career going, and get my repping business back on track.  I want to use and satisfy my creative side to make a good living, educate my kids, travel and be able to enjoy my life.  I want to live on the beach, and have a place in the mountains.  I want to continue to be healthy, continue to work out and help other people be healthy and fit.  After I have fixed these things, I would like to have a healthy relationship with a man...a real partnership with someone who puts as much effort into the relationship as I do and appreciates the woman I have become.

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