I loved the reading for today's tools. I am working on loving me and the changes taking place. As well as visualizing the new me and the me I want to be.
The situation I find myself in is two fold.
First my family which is on tools as well has been behind me 100%. But of late now that I have lost so much and on a platue they don't think I am trying. They keep telling me it is in my mind and it is because I don't have the want to and so forth.
I am doing everything I am supposed to and believe me I do have the want to. The fact is I have reached a point that after 110 pounds that the weight is not coming off as easily. It is getting where they make me feel bad because of it. They say they aren't getting on to me and don't want to upset me but it is.
Second part of the the situation is one that many can't understand. When you lose large amounts of weight like this. Many people have lost way more than I have and probably know exactly what I am talking about. There is a thing called the mind's eye. Sometimes what you see when you look in the mirror is not what is actually there.
You hear of this with people that are too thin and think they are fat. I know I am smaller and I feel it. When I look in the mirror though I still see the old me. It takes looking at pictures of myself to actually see the drastic changes. My family doesn't understand this.
I am sorry if it sounds like I am complaining. It is just I am feeling frustrated today. When one exercises and does everything right and they are told they aren't losing because they don't want to. Well it really wears you down after a while.
Having never been heavy they really are trying but are having a hard time of understanding what it is like. My family was all heavy except for my dad's side. My husband's family are all slim people who would not think of being 10 pounds over weight. I love them to death and they love me. I guess it is just a difference of culture.
