Today's readings were about learning from the past and then moving on. I believe I have been doing a pretty good job of that.
I forgive people that hurt me and usually forget unless it is something major then I forgive but have one eye open. The reason I mention this is because my sister is arriving on Sunday afternoon.
In the past we have not been able to get along. We had nothing in common and nothing I ever did was right for her. I never knew when she would blow up at me even in public.
As we grew older things got better some what. We could be around each other for longer periods of time. Only thing is as soon as I thought I could confide in her she would betray my trust and use it against me.
But that is all in the past. We are both a lot older now and our parents have past. Many things have occurred in our lives that caused us both to mature. We email and call each other on a regular bases.
Last time she was down 2 years ago it went very well. She only got upset 1 time and that was because I mentioned church too much. But I reminded her that is really all my life is about what else do I have to talk about.
This time oh so much has changed. I have many more interest even though church is still the main stay of my life.
I am excited about her arriving and looking forward to it. But I have to admit there is a part of me that is anxious as well. Even my in-laws and church family keep telling me not to let her tear me down and be little all I have achieved. I don't think she will but I am going to make sure to be prayed up just in case. Plus my mother-in-law is going to get my anxiety medicine filled before she gets here.
So it is time for me to see how much of the past I have really left in the past by facing the past this next two weeks.
