Discovery

Last night I went to prayer meeting and while praying the ladies were praying with me. They know that I am going through some tough times right now that turned my life upside down resulting from a shock in a turn of events.

It is something that is totally out of my hands. But I came to a realization last night one that I hadn't admitted to myself since the whole thing started a couple of weeks ago.

Really it is nonsense and I have no reason to be because I have people that love me. I have faith in God. I have a awesome in-law family that is like my own and I have a very strong supportive church family.

Yet at age 51 with my life turned upside down and inside out I discovered the feeling I was feeling inside was that I was scared.

So scared of what is going to happen. All I knew to do was cry out to God and give it to my heavenly father.

I have never faced anything like this before in my life.

This is part of the reason I need to take control and ward of the spiral of depression and sneeky attacks of anxiety.

Each day I am getting better even when there are bumps in the road I know there is a better day on the other side of the bump.

I have included a picture of my sweet in-laws with this blog.

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Tags: fear, Depression, Anxiety