Tis the Season

I have to be honest. This year the holiday season has been very hard on me. Today's tools was very good and just what I needed. 

Don't get me wrong I have a lot to be grateful for. I am getting healthier, I have wonderful in-laws and a church family that is filled with love. But for reasons I can't go into my husband won't be here this year. This is the second Christmas since my mother's death. 

I am happy about all of the changes that are happening to me but with change comes an awakening of memories. Memories that I never knew were there. So on one hand I am happy and very blessed. On the other there is an ache that has to be dealt with so that I must grow. 

My husband will be returning this I know. My mother is in heaven so she is better off. It is just all of the garbage that has laid burried inside of me that is coming to the surface. Now more than ever I find myself leaning on the everlasting arm of God.

My church family have been so great. They have been there every step of the way. Even when I found out devastating things this year. Their love never changed only grew stronger. When I felt I could not go on any further they lifted me up and rallied around me. 

God is so good and you may not have a relationship with God but as your journey moves on you will find you are going to need a strong tower in your life. Mine is God. 

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