lot of things havebeen going on after i lost my job and had to deal with the negativity coming from my family as i refuse to go back to my old job being underpaid in a goverment hospital hating it every second of th day. still i was jobless, in debt and broke. i was ovetweight and still single feeling bitter afterso many disssapointment in that aspect of life that i just felt...wait a minute...i can change this.
i spent months doing research in business i can start.i realised more and more i want to take responsibilty of my life so inspite of all i was going through and having some really bad days i felt for the first time i no longer feel selfpity as i felt my whole life instead i felt empowered by all i m going through and decided ..its time .
so somehow this site vanished as i sepnt hours doing feverish research .still i was desperate i ll do anything but not go back to hell which is life as i knew it.
i was tired of being in the wrong job that made me so discontent that i ahted myself for not being honest and strong enough to leave and take risks
it was a tough time but i never felt so good..my anxiety and daily fears became a distant memory.
it is not easy to redit your life in the age of 36 when u r alone and broke and in debt but i have been scared all my life of being in such situation so now that it happened i realise its alright...being afraid of all of this was strsling my joy in life.for 2 years i sepnt my time on medication dealing with chronic depression and severe bouts of anxiety and in my best days negativity was running amok all day long..i lost my peace to sleep .i hated waking up so much that i ll drug myself to sleep more.
yes i was in the nightmare i feared all my life and guess what i never felt better.
i realise all thar was happening wasnt killing me .i felt i can deal with it and i guess it was the first time i actually grew up with psotive determination and none of my old despair.
so here i am now restarti g my programmes on this amazing site..i m now free of debt,have my own networkbusiness and determined to make my life mine.
