a new week

getting ready for the new week ..i m more determined then ever to work each and every day to make this week a step forward .i came a long way but last week have been bit shaky if i want to go further i have to establish this level to be able t raise the bar and go further.

i m excited and more determined then ever.i feel good about myself and my life and the direction i m setting fr myself.

today day 40 subject was about personel rules or laws and i realised i did that when i decided the quality of relationship i will allow into my life .i was tired of useless relationships and i decied to clean my life so to speak and keep the ones that refelcts my values and i m truly glad i have done thatbefore i se to worry if i become to choosy i will never be with any one.i  end up onely but the truth was i was more lonely in semirelationship and foloowing that decisioni  invovled in a relationship thats is real and reflect my values stil early but i m feeling comfortable and we had 3 dates each went really well.i m focused on the here and now the quality of relationship we share and i m for the first time in a very long time actualoy enjoying a real relationship one that i m totally me myself and feeling accepted not tryiing to be other then myself where we r gnna reach i have no clue and honestly i m not even worried which is really new for me ..the moment i meet a guy and feel attracted to him i start worrying wil it work how will it ends will it lead somehwere??this time i m calm and peaceful and enjoying the ride and allowing it to unfold..actually i m feeling i m allowing my whole life to unfold not just a relationship i m paying attention to different areas of my life and im enjoying workng on each one.yes i didnt feel this good about my life for a very long timethe funny thing is how the negativity sometime force itself like this sudden thought what if i loose my job if they close the center????it worried me for a bit but then i decided well i ll manage...and just saying that feels powerful:)

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