my demon is selfsabotage .i did it again and again.i will be carrying on very well and feeling great and suddenly this demon will awake and i will be paralysed by fear and discomfort and simply stuck.
its always with positive change that it arise.i m in a job i love and find satisfying to a great extent yet i stayed in bed yesterday hating myself and feeling bad about not making it to work.this is one.
two i m in a relationship that feels right and going on beautifully and so far three dates i enjoyed and all of a sudden i withdraw and keep the other out there in the cold which must feel like rejection and must be bewildering to him as i said i truly enjoy bonding with him.
i start to eat right and then suddenly i m infront of the tv stuffing my face with food that i dont even taste or enjoy.
i wake up effortlessly at dawn and force myself to go back to sleep and use fantasy till i m physically fed up of staying in bed.
so today i m being aware of my pattern and deciding one thing i may have called it a demon but its my demon i created it and only i can kill it.i m not using it as excuse any more.i m stronger and more powerful and i m responsible for my beahviour and attitude so i no longer feel this demon have any power over me or my life as i use to feel and belive.that its so powerful and i have to obey it.not any more.i made it up and this moment i am demolishing it with every act of awareness adn selfcare.
i wasted enough time beliving it stronger then me but things have changed.i have changed.i own my power and ability and its up tp me to make chices through the day.
my demon may stay in the shadow somehwere but it no longer has any power over me.
i choose to take responsibilty of getting up .coming to work.eating right.working out.thinking positve and being confident within my self and realtionships.so help me god
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keep it going
Keep going strong, and take one moment at a time!
Thank you thank you thank you!!!!
I totally feel inspired by your blog today!
Me too
I have similar ups and downs, especially with my diet, I guess this happens to a lot of us. I just try and remember a quote that came very early in the program from Elbert Hubbard: "There is no failure except in no longer trying." Then I keep on trying. We both can beat these things, and just knowing that we're not alone with these struggles is a big help to me. Hope this helps you too. Have a great day!