To those of you who gave me a big hug the other day, I say a big THANK YOU!
I have finished my project with the help of my brother and now it is already in Bonn where it will be looked over and then they tell me whether we get the concept or not.
My brother was a tremendous help. He phoned me and spoke to me and then all of a sudden he said: Look out your window. When I looked out I was so happy because he sat there in his car and waved. He came to me because he thought that I needed help and I sounded so forlorn.
So we both worked on the concept. My boss was astonished that I really did some work now and stopped by to ask so many helpful questions.... NOT! *sigh*
Well, but the Big Boss was delighted. I visited her the next day, brought the concept over and she worked on it with me. Now she tells all of her staff what can be done with the will and the power and the connections to the right people.
Out of my down-phase I got into the phase that I serve as a model for other co-workers! That's been a really great thing. I learned a lot from it and although I still hope that the next assignement will be easier and better to manage for me, I can now be proud of the fact that I finished it nearly on my own without the help of my boss and other co-workers.
So: Thanks again for your hugs and helpful words! *hug*