Estrella14:

Hang in there!!!

You are doing the right thing by being in tools and wanting to make positive changes to your life!!! Keep at it!!! You will do great and you will get where you want to be in life!!! Just hang in there, do your best and dont get deflated, you have so much to do and give!!! Take this as a learning experience to do things differently, and treat yourself kindly!!!

Big prayers going your way so that you may find a new wonderful cheap home, and get your finances sorted!!!! 

wd44:

sabotage

I have studied self-sabotagers (mostly other family members as the condition seems to be transmitted) and have tinkered with the practice myself.  Here's a thought for you to weigh.

It seems to me that people who consistently erect their own roadblocks do so out of fear of success.  "Failure" (we each have our own definition) becomes comfortable because it is what we know.  Humans will often choose something that they know to be painful, yet familiar, over something promising, but unfamiliar.

A good exercise might be to pick something of relatively minor significance and "take the road less travelled" (i.e. more SCARY).  Along the way, take note of how irrational your fears of the unknown were, and try to imagine how sabotaging yourself could ever possibly have produced better reslts for you.  

I hear you

juliangel:

Overwhelmed

I am overwhelmed by the sincere, touching support.  I can not thank all of you enough!

Lovingly,

Julia