I am at a COMPLETE stand still in life right now! It hurts to just get up and breathe. I feel restrained, controlled,and like I just can't be myself. I have noone to talk to right now and that is why I chose this forum for safety,security and just a place to unleash my thoughts,fears, feelings and hopefully soon...changes and progress. I am in a relationship that I probably should not be in and that probably isn't healthy for either of us??? I do everything I have to to keep peace in the house at the expense of my own happiness and to keep my anxiety and depression in check which is exhausting and excrutiating.
I am just really trying to get back in touch with who I am. I lost myself somewhere in the past 2 years. I want to dig out of this depression and bipolar and have just started initiating a plan to do so. I have been sober now for 2 weeks and reality and boredom are more horrifying than ever. I JUST WANT TO SMILE AND LAUGH AGAIN! and enjoy truly enjoy my life.
It is the only place I have to discuss my feelings right now.
You are offered your dream job. What job is it?:
My own company.
My favorite wild animal is:
Why (describe as much as possible):
That's the animal I feel I closest relate to.
My favorite domestic animal is (if you choose dog be specific with breed etc):
They are adorable,friendly,loyal and like your child. They seem to own you not the other way around.
A famous Chef will prepare anything you want. What do you order:
I LOVE IT!
Five people either dead or alive you would have at your fantasy dinner party::
fraud,Marilyn monroe,Johnny Depp,Donald Trump,The creator of google
I find Frauds thoughts and theories interesting considering he was a bipolar cocaine addict, Marilyn Monroe I find interesting because she had it all and still took her own life (Curt Cobaine also fascinates me on this level. Donald Trump because of his real estate investments
If a pilot would fly you anywhere you want, you would go to:
Europe it is an easier calmer enjoyed pace of life over there.
My perfect slice of pizza is:
Dominos philly cheesesteak
You are at a bar. You order this drink:
You are at a coffee shop. What coffee or tea do you order:
Large hot coffee, 2 shots of espresso, 2 sugars,2creams and whipped cream on top. I'm serious and picky about my coffee!
If a genie could grant you three wishes they would be (separate by commas):
To be GENUINLY happy. To have peace of mind, and of course more than enough money to take care of those I care about.
You are going on a long road trip and you can only bring three CD's. Which ones do you bring
(separate by commas):
Tupac's greatest hits,eminem curtain call, 100 greatest love songs
If I could do anything for my neighborhood today, it would be:
Just be an ear and a shoulder
A sunset I remember:
I was in Florida and going through someones death and I sat there drinking screaming and watching the sunset.
Any character I could be from a movie, TV show or book would be:
Anyone that is an underdog and can overcome any challenge
Who doesn't root for the underdog and want them to succeed?