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Wed, Dec 05 12:00 AM

My new life

 

My life is changed forever the day my xhusband walked out the door and I realised I needed to re evaluate the way I look at everything in my life,

 

how could I have been married to man who could lie, cheat and walk out on me, who claimed he had agrophobia for 15yrs and I supported him and gave up so much of my time and places I wanted to go and where I wanted to be instead I  supported him with his agrophia everything evolved around his agrophobia we could not go here or there or do this or that because he might have a panic attack and there was no use saying I wanted him to come somewhere with me no he might have a panic attack,

 

 I learnt to accept that there was no use asking any thing from him as I got the same answer all the time though when he wanted to go or do something he managed to still go as long as I went with him incase he needed me to drive him if he had a panic attack,

 

 and all of a sudden he walks out the door and tells me he thinks he was using me for his agrophobia and needs to go find himself and I find out later he was having an affair and can go out anywhere now the agrophobia is gone I was not good enough for him once his agrophobia disapeared.

 

And here I am re- evaluating myself how could have let myself be used, have a person so important in my life treat me like I am not important and I realised he did not really care about me at all especially when he said your no fun I cannot take you anywhere, no you cannot meet my new friends, when his agrophia had suddenly disapeared I was treated like I was not important for many years, there was never any praise from him towards me only critiscm, he was never happy, everything I did was wrong, I could never do anything right, everything had to be his way or not at all, there was no meet you half way,

 

 I realised after he walked out the door and I let it happen the whole 15yrs of my life.

 

The rose coloured glasses have come off and I have been set free from a life of not feeling important now it is time to find myself and live my life to the fullest of what I want and treat every moment as precious and important to me.

 

 

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AZangel99 AZangel99:

New Beginnings!

So, on to the NEXT 15 years of freedom to be who YOU are, go where YOU want to go, and do what YOU want to do! You didn't necessarily "let yourself be used" - you believed in the man, and your marriage. Don't beat yourself up, you have a fabulous opportunity now! Congratulate yourself because you have ripped off the 'rose colored glasses' and have clarity now. Tools will assist you in defining who YOU are, and you can set out on your new journey- destination: Inner peace, happiness, joy, and forgiving yourself. 

Sending you a hug Sending you a hug

CoachSteele CoachSteele:

Other People's Behavior

Other people's behavior is about them not about you.  Never think that you were not good enough.  Never give anyone else that power to define your worth. 

 

As you go through Tools you will now pay attention to you and define yourself.  You will take all this personal power you have that you have  focused on his needs with and direct towards building your life the way you want it.

 

You will be amazed at the happiness you can achieve.  Get excited, you are free of being drained and beautiful events will unfold as you work on your journey of discovering who you are and how much you truly are worth.

 

On your side,

 

Devlyn 

 

 

karooka karooka:

Thankyou for your replies on my blogg re: my new life

 

Thankyou for your replies to my last blogg you have both given me helpful advice that I understand completely,

 

I am now able to start my own life without obstructions and I have learnt that I need to use my energy towards myself in a positive way and that my life will improve.

 

I am now free of unhappiness and negativity and there is nothing holding me back now I can move forward to a new positive life.

karooka karooka:

My achievements for today

I have been swimming since January this year and in May this year I took up swim stroke correction classes and I learnt how to swim freestyle properly since may I have been swimming freestyle properly in the pool nearly everyday and I made a goal to swim 80 laps in a hour by the end of the year today I swam 70 laps in a hour.

 

Whoa I am nearly there