days 22 and 23

 well,  i took a day again, and coach steele's video busted me and my negative thoughts. these pesky thoughts of negative action keep creeping in and i didn't even realize what had happened. i was soo positive and ready to take on the next day, when i stopped and thought,   i think i'll take a day off and rest my brain from this.  after all,  i'm doing ok  and i have a good outlook. i'll use the time to reflect all of what i have learned so far.  but guess what?   i didn't use the time that way.  and when sunday rolled around i took another day off.  i knew something was wrong. i found myself looking at the computer and wanting soo much to sign on and see what was going on, but something in me kept saying no. leave it. don't just take a day,  take the whole weekend off.   so that's what i did.  and what do you think the coach talked about?  exactly that.  how they sneak in and try to stop us. i was amazed at his insight.  a bump it was.   a big bump.  and i guess, more to come and to be expected.  i expect next time to handle it better than i did this weekend.  i let myself down again. and i hate that feeling.  but in learning about it, i feel more empowered in dealing with it.  each day, it seems,  i'm amazed at either the results of what's happening in my life,  my reactions to issues,  or the information in my daily tools. this man really did his homework. i have some catching up to do here. i still have to buy my books as well. another one of those things, i felt i didn't need to do or get done right away.  but even with all this conflict between brain thoughts and will, there was still positive actions taking place. nothing hugely dramatic,  but for me, in my life, a huge step to where i want to go.  so all is good and i'm still psyched up and wanting to do well. i know a bit more now and will look for those pesky negative thoughts when they try to surface. next time i should be ready for them.

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