This week has been a struggle for me. I feel like I hit a wall in Tools and am stuck. I am feeling frustrated in nearly every area of my life this week. The simple fact that I'm struggling frustrates me more than I can express. After going this long in TOOLS and feeling so great how can I all of a sudden hit this wall of emotion? I feel like I've regressed back to the state I was in when I started TOOLS. I know things are going to turn around again. I know I can turn things around, but lately it's a struggle even convincing myself of that. I do have a lot on my plate and I think my son turning 4 has really thrown me for a loop emotionally (silly, but true). I lost focus on things because I was so busy and now I'm feeling the effects of that. I know I need to just dig in and get focused again, but I'm having a hard time doing that because I'm in such a bad emotional state of mind. UGGGHHHH! Sorry to be so negative today. I just needed to put those feelings out there today before they overtake me again.
I will say that my husband has been so wonderful through this. He used to get really frustrated with me when I would go through this stuff. This time he's been very compassionate and helpful. He's encouraging me and helping me not beat myself up about things. He's my shining light this week. I'm so thankful that I have him in my corner! Actually, my son also has been pretty good. He has been arguing more with me lately (a stage I think), but he's also been very sweet and loving. I guess I should say that my husband and kids have helped me a lot this week. I'm glad that I have them in my life. I'm thankful that they are patient with me when I struggle emotionally. I know it's not easy on them either.
Well, thanks for listening. For what it's worth, I feel a little better having written this.