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Fri, Sep 25 04:28 AM

DO OR DIE DAY

 

Well, this is it.  Monday is the day it is the day that my son said he would go to a rehab to check in.  I told him to look me in the eye and say it and he did. 

 

So now I wait and I watch.  Hopeful that he carries it thru, doubtful that he will.  I do have a couple of Aces in my back pocket if he tries to back out.  The aces are sharp and they will hurt.  I have no choice if I jave to influence him to take the step to save his own life.

 

This isnt going to be easy.  Its going to hurt me alot more than it is going to hurt him.  If he backs out of the agreement, I am cutting him off from everything I know I can.  Im also going to try to influence his sisters to do the same.  Im certain one daughter will, and hopeful that the other one  will as well.

 

I know that we cannot make promises we cannot keep.  I need to stress this to the oldest sister.  She is close to him but needs to stay away and not contact him, if that is what she threatens. 

 

I hope that we do not have to resort to this.

I hope that he sincerely wants the help and is willing to carry thru with his promise to me... He has never looked me in the eye and not followed thru.  I hope that this is not the first.  If it is, I know it is the drug doing it,  but also know that it... the drug, has become my son.

 

Monday... its DO OR DIE DAY.

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smilin2 smilin2:

Thinking of you

sending prayers and good wishes.  Yep, it is hard, but certainly sounds you are handling it well. 

 

Consistency and honesty are, for me, the most basic of truths.

 

Boundaries, even if compromises vs all or nothing, work for all parties so long as they are held firm, clear and consistent.

 

Wondering what you are doing today to soothe your hurting heart.

 

Take gentle care

 

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