Hi my name is Cristina i am 19 years old.

My life seemed so great i was in dance classes, soccer, cross country, and track. I was a very actice kid and my freshmen your in high school went by and i had a blast.  But after my freshmen year i no longer felt as happy as i used to.  I quit my dance classes and all my sports and i was no longer interested in anything.  Everything now seemed like a chore rather than an activity i enjoyed doing.  As i stasrted my freshmen year in college i was hopeful that maybe my freshmen year in college would be fun and a new start.  But to my disappointment it was not.  I didnt do the things i wanted to do i wasnt as active as i wanted and my mood got worse.  I didnt want to go out and i was sad all the time. I started wating to comfort myself and its gotten to the point where im asking my self if i could ever get out of this state of mind.  It seems to control my life and i have no clue what i can do return to the person i was. I find that meeting new people and sustaining relationships have been ackward when before it was easy for me to socialize. Thanks to my boyfriend and my niece and nephew i have been doing alot better.  ive been going to the park and laughing more. but i still find myself returning to that depressed state of mind where all i do is lay in bed watch tv and eat.  

My future is going to be very actice.  i want to travel voulunteer as much as i can. i want join sports learn how to surf and own a german shephered. i will live without the fear of other peoples opinion. i no longer will be lazy or depressed to the point where i stop living my life. I want to be a fighter and whenever i feel sad i want to be able to pick my self up almost immediately and continue on with my life never get stuck on in emotion again.