Barbie:

I know the feeling...

Been out with out no computer for some time and just got back.. just get back on the barn wagon you are off to a good start at least you login in today take one day at a time.. 

paperqueen:

Positive Practice?

It's good you realize you are making too many off-the-wall comments. There seems to be some sort of pseudo connection we make between sarcasm and intellect. Frequently, sarcasm becomes our social crutch because, after all, people laugh and think our observations are witty, ergo, we feel smart (smug?). Our ego is validated.  But the people who always laugh are not the ones around us all the time! Those close to us want to hear validation of their feelings. They want some positive signs of connection.

I know it's been awhile since you logged onto Tools, but one of the suggestions is to look in the mirror and say out loud, my attitude is my decision and I am deciding to have a good one.  Affirmations said out loud and practiced everyday may give you pause in the " real" world so you can train your brain to be more positive.  There are some very good exercises I encourage you to try. Another one is to write out your personal positive paragraph about how you see yourself and your life as though it is happening NOW.  I think that would help you see all the love and happiness you really want to show your fiancee. 

Keep practicing! Small steps will accumulate and give you and those around you great satisfaction.  It's not easy planning a wedding.  Maybe start thanking everyone for all the arrangements they have made instead of complaining about the (inevitable) mistakes? Have a Great Positive Day Today! You can do it!

Wordbird:

Small changes make a big difference

Sarcasm is just a habit--might be anger, might be a defense, might be you like the humor, or your way of staving off closeness. Whatever the reason, it's not working for you.

You know what to do with something that isn't workin' for you. Glad you are back.