JEDITEECH:

Honoring her memory

It is good you have a picture of her by you. Remember and dwell on the good times and know that she would want you to forge on and create and experience the life you deserve. It is no easy thing... here is to your continued success and the spirit of your mother which will always be with you.

You're not alone

Brenda.Griffin:

Grief is a process.....you'll get through it

I know it is hard.  Death anniversaries are tough! Especially with a parent - someone core in your life. Take extra good care of yourself. What you are experiencing is part of the process. Just let it happen.

After my parents died, it seemed everyday was a struggle.  I would wake up and just cry (and be late for work which didn't help).  Not too many people understood. I found that most thought the grief was over after the burial - and it wasn't (as you are experiencing.)

So I had to reach out to those who did understand and I would enccourage you to do the same if you haven't already.

I also found a great workbook that help me very much.  "Surviving the loss of a love" (something like that).  Anyway, it helped me to move through the process and get closure so that I could feel alive and optimistic about life again. Sometimes, you have to just puke out the saddness and get it over with.  I found that the days of crying stopped, although sometimes I just miss them.  It is what it is.

Hang in there.  You will get thorugh this.  The pain does go away but you have to make an effort to realease it the best you can - I know it hurts but it won't kill you / overwhelm you to just embrace it all (trust me with that one - I resisted and it prolonged things for me). You will learn to adjust to life without her and the struggles will be manageable. And you will have the life you want.

Sending you a hug

RPowers:

You are on track..

You took the first step.. You are on the right track.

We're all here for you..

Sending you a hug