Right now life is all about trying to figure it all out.  In my twenties a lot of my time was wasted on youth.  I'm trying to change that for my thirties.  Saying, "NO!" when I really don't want to do something without feeling guilty, doing things that make me happy without feeling guilty, concentrating on the relationships that give back to me as much as I give to them, and finally to decide what I want to do with my life.

These thoughts pretty much consume me day and night, I feel like I'm in panic mode and that I must work through it all before I turn 35 (I'm 33)!  I'm unsatisfied in my career but get paid so well its almost impossible to leave.  I'd like to have a baby but my boyfriend of 7 years who is two years younger then me says he's not sure! My life passion is running, I run competively and am addicted to training and am in constant NEED to beat my BP.

The biggest problem area of my life is money.  It always has been.  Financially I'm a wreck!  What really set me back was buying a house on my own that I truly couldn't afford back on 06' and its been a downward spiral since.

Running is my crack, I need it, I have to it!  If I don't run or train my entire demeanor changes.  I turn evil.  I feel out of control and ruin the days of those around me so they feel just as shitty as I do. 

I hope to change that and figure out what it is I want out of life.

Cheers,

Andrea

For the most part I grew up in a loving home.  My father who started his family late at the age of 40 was the most amazing dad, still is!  My mother was difficult.  I love her but our relationship has been strained from the time I was a baby. 

I ended up rebelling earlier then most, around 13.  Never got into drugs or alcohol but hung with a very bad crown and was constantly in trouble.

I met my ex husband when I was 19, bought a house with him at 20, had a baby at 21, married at 24, and divorced at 25.  From 19-23 my life was a mess!

At 24 I went to college taking Police Foundations.  I became as involved as I possible could.  I was elected to be the college's student ambassador, work two other college jobs, and graduated on the dean's list.

I was hired by the government a month before graduation and life has been pretty good since. 

Since divorcing, which by the way was the best damn thing that's ever happened to me, I met Cory.  Its been 6 good years but I would like our future to be filled with greatness :)

My future is definitely where its at!  I probably look more into the future then the present, something I have to work on.

The future for me looks like this:  I will be at such peace with myself that nothing others say or do will effect my mood.  I'll truly understand that other people's judgements towards me have nothing to do with me but everything with them!

I will be a better mother to Jacob (my 12 yr old son) and hopefully I'll also have a new lil jelly bean.

I'll have landed my dream job with GoodLife Fitness and have left the government.

All my finacial issues will no longer be issues.  I'll be debt free, have a decent RSP, and a pretty savings.  Total financial freedom is the goal.

And of course to better all my relationships, especially with Cory as he truly is the love of my life :)

Cheers Guys!

OxO

A.