Self imposed tests - walking the tight-rope

Amazing how easy, after a whole bunch of time succeeding in pushing back the demons - you can walk that very fine line and feel yourself toppling.  Didnt topple, but came dame close - and it sends back a big reminder of why I needed to get out of this in the first place - the impatience to get to the computer, the time - god the time wasted, the tension and return of the rationalization/disappointment with ones self.

So, didnt plunge into the abyss, but maybe that was just luck.  Coach hit it on the head when he said tempations are traps...the part of you that wants back in says...go, try it, you can resist - but that is the trap in and of itself.

Well, this challenge is nothing compared with what many of you are facing, and I feel foolish even writing about it...but in the spirit of honesty, there it is.

And so, in the spirit of Tools, I will now laugh at my own foolishness, tell myself that my attitude and my actions are mine to choose, and move forward again.

And I will get the hell off this machine!

Have a good night all, and a great weekend if we dont connect.

LG

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