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Mon, Mar 09 01:05 AM

another bad day

 OH where do I start!  things are still a mess with me right now...Still fighting with the parents, they would not let my b/f come this weekend...long story. I  have it worked out to move in with a friend once I'm off house arrest which may be by the end of the month god willing. I'm pretty nervous but court. I have a man from jail stalking me...threatening me and my parents...I don't know how to handle that.  I am going to start by contacting my PO and making sure this guys PO is aware of the situation.  I went to my first NA meeting tonight.  It went really well I enjoyed it I will definitely go back. My b/f is going to come next week If my parents don't let him come to the house he will at least come for the NA meeting he is so supportive! i am blessed to have him the only problem I had was when I got there a supposed friend of mine was there with my stalker in her car!  thank God they didnt go in...but it makes me wonder why they were there in the first place....nothing can ever be simple in my life!!!I am so bad at dealin with stressfull situations.  I was getting high since I was 12 ill be 31 in a few months.  Im not used to deling with my emotions.  I used to block them out to make my self numb so now that im sober I'm feelin all these emotions at once and it scary.  I have been thinkin of my deceased husband and my children.  Its been a real rough week for me.  I was doin  a 19 day weight loss program but i got sick and didnt make past dy 3....looks like i will be starting over.  it'll admit its been rough for me and the though of using has crossed my mind.  But this time Im not putting myself in a position to get high.  I'm still disappointed in my self for relpsing the other week.  I'm trying to remain positive and look at how far I have come.  But its really hard with all this shit goin on in my life.  Seems like its always something.  My life is such a struggle.if I can just hold on till April....  

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Just an observation

Mallory,

 

Just an observation from one of the Tools folks.  Jason Ellis, who got me on this site said it best.  If you say it's a bad day, it's going to be a bad day.  If you tell yourself your awesome and that you have the power to be better it will happen!

 

Bad days will always happen, if you let them and allow yourself to focus on the bad.  Look for the positive things that YOU can do, not those around you.

 

My Great Grandma at the age of about 86 got asked to bail out a grandson after he stole a Porsche.  We live in a very rural area and you didn't see them very much.  She thought it over and said she was very disappointed with him landing in jail for stealing a car, but she thought that if you were going to steal a car it was good of him to steal a nice car.

 

She couldn't control the situation that ocurred, but made her decision and attempted to make the best of it.

 

Just my thoughts, be cool and take care of you and reject those who don't respect you for making those right decisions.