finnally in the right track...

 I had a few rough months there. The supposed friend that I was living with told probation a bunch of lies and I was picked up on the 4th of June and taken back to jail.  After a month and a half I was released in to an inpatient treatment program, where I did 28 days.  It was actually very good for me even though I have been sober for 8 months now.  I'm still waiting to be sentenced but from what my lawyer says I should I should just be getting a fine, thank God. I finally made it to PGH...although I am still waiting on an apartment. It should be ready with in the week though. For the first time in a long time I am actually happy!!   I came to a realization that I had to cut my parents out of my life.  It was the best decision I have made.  When I needed my family most they were sending me horrid letters like always telling me how horrible that I am. Then had the nerve to tell me that I couldn't talk to my grandmother!! the even told her she had to make her choose between them or me!! they have her so stressed out she's 85! she dose not need this in here life.  My grandmother and I have such a wonderful relationship and nothing will ever come between us. They actually told her that i didn't family right now that I would be better off alone on the street with no one!  That right there showed me that they will never change.  I wanted so badly to have parents...all of my life I wanted to have that bond that children have with there family.  But I know now that is never going to happen, and I'm ok with that. After all they had said, the nasty letters that they wrote, and trying to come between my grandmother and I they actually think that now that I am out and in Pittsburgh and doing well that I will come back to them!  I really truely don't understand then and I never will. It's sad that it has come to the point where i had to cut them out of my  life but I have to focus on what is best for me my health and sobriety counts on it.  I am learning to turn things over to God now.  and he has given me peace.  I and for the first time hopeful about the future!!    

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