My wife is a recovering addict. The support from your boyfriend is fantastic. You are always stronger than you think you are. Look forward knowing that your past is just your past, write your own future.
thanks for your support. I know you could use some too, so stick with it and feel free to write if you feel yourself barreling down the tracks toward doom at high speed!
you can do it, and so can I. life is worth living if you can lift the fog to see it.
I am a 30 year old widow and mother of two. though I haven't been able to see my children in over five years. I currently live near Pittsburgh PA. I'm trying to move back to Pittsburgh but I'm currently on house arrest, facing two sets of drug related charges. I have done just about every drug I can think of, but I'm proud to say that I have been clean for over 7 months now. I have a wonderful supportive boyfriend that has helped me in my road to recovery. I just recently got approved for my SSI as I am extremely bipolar, have panic attacks , depression as well as an injury to my shoulder as a result of a suicide attempt. I was referred to this site by my boyfriend as he knows how I am trying to get my life straight.
My past isn't something I'm proud of nor do I particularly like to talk about it. I was pregnant with my first born at 18 an mother at 19 and married at 20. My marriage was great at first, then we got in to the drugs pretty heavy. Heroin was our down fall. the first trip to jail was in 2002. Shortly after I was released from jail I found my self pregnant again. I was able to stay clean and had a healthy baby boy. Things were fine for about a year and then my husbands addiction got out of control, as did my depression. I hanged myself in the fall of '03. I died for 10 mins was in a coma for 4 days. Went to a psych ward then jail as I was on Parole and causing harm to myself was a violation. While I was dead on the floor my husband called his parents who were in Florida and signed over my children to them. A year later he over dosed, possible on purpose as he was studying the satanic bible and the book of death. I moved in with who was later to become an abusive boyfriend. And got back in to drugs pretty heavy. I left my boyfriend after he split my head open and gave my 10 stitches. I moved to Pittsburgh after being charged in two drug cases. I was on the run. that lasted from March to July 28 when I overdosed once again. I went to the hospital then jail. I spent two and a half months in jail then went on house arrest where I have been on for over five months now waiting on my hearings.
I am afraid to see what the future holds. I'm hopin my felony charges will be dropped to misdemenors, and I will be able to move back to Pittsburgh where my wonderful (sober!) boyfriend lives. I'm lookin into subsidised housing but don't know if my criminal past will be a problem. I'm in a intense rehab program and am just takin one day at a time