Day 6

So - today I really wanted to stay in bed.  I have a difficult time sleeping and often don't fall asleep until between 1 and 3 am. 

Once the clock starts going past 1am - I usually just sigh and turn my alarm from 6am to 8 am and hope for the best.  Last night/this morning, at about one or so I was thinking "I should really change my clock or I won't have enough sleep - (I use my cell phone as an alarm clock - I have three alarm settings available - they are preset for 6:00am, 7:00am, and 8:00am) - Before Tools, it was only so that I could choose the latest "safe" time to wake up - but now that I am doing tools I have all three activated each morning.  I changed the earliest alarm from 6:30 to 6:00 am - made that my WAKE UP/clap,splash,brush, SMILE alarm - the 7:00am alarm (which just went off) is to alert me that if I haven't yet begun - I have to do my Tools for the day.  The 8:00 alarm is my setting to be "done" with my Tools/Blogging and prepare to get to work. 

Well - I have been late for work by 5 to 20 minutes pretty much every day for the past year or so (LOL - I know, I know...) - My Supervisor likes me and knows I do a really good job, so she doesn't really "make" me come in on time which, in a way, is nice - but honestly I have seen my "lateness" shift over the past year from 5 minutes on average to 15 minutes on average.  I make excuses and rationalizations that have SOME merit in order to not feel completely bad about it - but I REALLY want to change it.... 

On the bright side, yesterday (which was a Monday) I decided that was going to be my first 'on-time' day - I scheduled everything and was so proud of myself for actually staying on schedule doing my Tools, and yet, when I was driving out of my driveway, it was 9:00 am - I began to run my "failure tapes" through my head, but then stopped and shifted my focus. 

I realized that actually 9:00 wasn't bad to be actually DRIVING... and that although I hadn't been "perfect" I HAD acheived all the things that I needed to and had committed to that morning - I had been successful at 9 out of 10 things!  I felt much better... and I was only 6 minutes late! (I have been running much closer to 20 minutes late for the past couple of weeks). 

Then, like I said before, I was up really late last night and wanted to change my alarm to 7 or 8 this morning - but said, "NO - if I change it now it will totally defeat the purpose of all this.  Even if I am short on sleep - if I continue to wake up at 6am I will eventually start falling asleep earlier" - (or I will turn in to a ZOMBIE, we shall see . . .).

This morning at 6am the alarm went off after 4.5 hours of sleep and BOY did I want to stay in bed.  BUT I DIDN'T PUSH SNOOZE - I CLAPPED/SPLASHED/BRUSHED/SMILED - went in the kitchen for coffee and sat down here. 

 I am proud of myself (if a bit bleary-eyed). 

Funny thing, when I got to my Toolbox, guess what the topic is?  BEING ON TIME!!!!

LOL - the universe has a great sense of humor, no? 

It's a GREAT day - Hope you are all sharing that with me!    Amanda 

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