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Join Now New Beginnings: Tools helped me avoid a CRASH by mbteach57
 
mbteach57
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Birth Date: Wed, May 08

Place of residence:
Deloraine Manitoba, Canada (map)

I am: Single & Dating

Schools: Brandon University, University of Winnipeg

Jobs: Teacher


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Member Since: 05/21/07
Last Login: 01/30/11
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Make healthy eating a lifelong choice and become a comfortable weight for me
Exercise daily until it becomes a lifelong habit
Drink water instead of diet pop
Learn to play a song on the piano
learn to kayack
buy a mountain bike
try camping with someone who knows what they are doing
Scuba dive or snorkel in a tropical paradise
Create a scrapbook albums of my photographs
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Walk in a marathon
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Drive a golf ball over 300 yards
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Travel to Italy
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New Beginnings: Tools helped me avoid a CRASH

 

 

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  mbteach57

Mon, Mar 23 08:50 PM

New Beginnings: Tools helped me avoid a CRASH

 Today turned out to be a tough day. I am trying to cope with and help my son through his current difficulties and be patient with my daughter. I have been doing so well but tonight while I was out walking things just overwhelmed me and I cried most of the way home. The negative thoughts and "voices" were back, so were some of the suicidal images and thoughts. I tried deep breathing as I was finishing my walk and resolved to phone the Crisis Center when I got home because I was feeling so down and overwhelmed. Guess what? I phoned the Crisis Center and no one answered! Not good for someone with low self esteem but its ok, I am laughing about it as I type this. I tried again in a few minutes and got a "Cathy" with a very brisk voice on the phone. Not the most patient person I have ever talked to and I couldn't stop crying. What brought everything crashing down was she asked me what I had done to bring on the depression again (!!!) Nothing personal Cathy but I was already overwhelmed by guilt and feeling down about all the mistakes I had made in my life. I tried to reach my online friend, but he wasn't on. Then I remembered what BigPitt said to me...keep your head up and power through it. Lots of the tools ideas came into my brain. I needed to look after myself and no one else could change or help me but me! Sooo I took some mild medication my doctor said would relieve anxiety. I had a bubble bath with new bubble bath I had bought because of tools. I washed my face, I brushed my teeth, I applied night cream to hold back those wrinkles! :-) I decided to do today's TOOL and it was about being grateful. Reading out my sentences aloud made a huge difference. I feel a lot better now. I am going to get a good night's sleep right after I check my alarm clock! I am so grateful for TOOLS, for Devlyn's inspiration and for all of my new friends here. You have no idea how much your "boosts" and comments mean to me! Thank you from the bottom of my heart

 

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Great

Way to go! Way to go!

Power movin'

Sending you a hug Sending you a hug

 

Talk about powering through it!!!  You blasted it!!! While it sucks to see that you were in such a bad place, its really great to see that you picked yourself up and dusted you off and soldiered on.... I'm glad to see that YOU did it 57 (Not Tools).  Good show!!

 

 

Thanks for blogging,

Shane13

Hurts

Sending you lots of love Sending you lots of love. I am glad that you made it through yesterday.  Today will be much better for it.  I am greatful for hard days because they make us appreciate other days so much more.

The further you go....

the stronger you get....

 

Keep working the tools!!!  They will work best for you that way... There are so many more yet to learn!!!

Wow! What an Inspiration You Are!

This is such an inspiring post! Thanks so much for sharing. Keep going!!

You're not alone You're not alone


I am grateful for your blog

You're not alone You're not alone