A little behind

Ok ok, so I've been 'slacking' off and I'm a few days behind. But in all fairness, I have been busy making progress with my life. I started the class I've been wanting to take (and let me tell you, 8 hours of anatomy is a bit wearing on the brain!), I put in an extra day at work, it was my birthday, and then I got lazy for a couple of days. I guess I just needed a couple of days to recouperate. I'm not used to so much activity!

This birthday for me was one of the best I can remember for a long time. It wasn't about the presents I received (hello, salad spinner? haha), but about the company I shared. I'm surrounded by people that I care about and that care about me, and I don't even know if that's ever happened before. I was able to step back and look at my life to ask myself a few questions; Am I happy? Where am I at compared to where I thought I would be? Do I feel loved? And yes, I do/am to all of them. It's a very satisfying feeling and motivates me to keep going.

Every year I tell myself I'm not going to let my birthday or age get to me. It's just another day. But every year I would feel sad, lonely, and lost. Frustrated at best. Now I feel strong, and even though not everything is perfect, I have the things in my life that I need to be who I want to be, and go where I want to go. I have two years till I hit 30, and I wanted to make sure I set some goals for myself so I don't get there and look back and think 'damn, I didn't do anything!'. But on the date of my birthday I sat with a friend over dinner who was helping try to realize some of my goals. But with every aspect of my life she brought up, I realised that I'm already working towards a lot of goals that I will be more then happy with when I reach 30, or that I've already reached them. Who would have thought turning 28 would be the best thing to ever happen to me? :)

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