My many breakthroughs

 I realize that I have not been participating much on this site since I joined, but that doesnt mean I havent been working on myself.  I have been going through a horrid depression due to my bipolar, and the death of my cousin a year ago.  Which is first off break through number 1.  I didnt realize my depression was related to my cousins death until my best friend mentioned happiness, and I tried to remember the last time I was happy.  I then made the connection that the last time I was happy was shortly before his death.  I hadnt been to his grave site, because I didnt think I could handle it since his death.  So after my realization I thought a visit is what I needed to let go. I went this Thanksgiving. I left two stones one saying inspiration (because he was and is), and one saying serenity (because that is what I wished us both).  Before leaving I got a sudden compulsion to leave my rose quartz necklace there (I believe in the metaphysical so I bought it to help me through my depression) I have learned to go with these compulsions as they always prove to mean something somehow.  So I ripped the necklace from my neck, and anchored it with one of the stones.  Later that day I stated how I felt like a peice of me was missing since I took the necklace off.  That  was when things clicked into place.  I realized I had left a peice of me at the gravesite but it wasnt the necklace, it was a peice of my heart the day he died.  Making that connection almost instantly freed me from my depression.  Since then I have started journaling daily (something I have put off for years), I started counseling again, and I am sticking to my meds the way I should.  My other breakthrough happened a few months ago I joined a gym, and a deit counseling group.  I have been doing great with it.  I have lost twenty pounds and twenty inches.

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