When I was growing up, I was an ugly kid.  Kids made fun of me in elementary, junior high and high school.  My younger brother was much better looking than me and genuinely better than me in school and sports.   As a result, my parents have always favored him over me.   So, at a very young age, I developed a complex where I did not feel good about myself or worthy.

When I went to college, I got a new haircut. I waxed my eyebrows and I entered with a new attitude.  I was no longer a dorky kid. When I cleaned myself up, I was surprised to learn that I was quite handsome.  Women in college loved me.  There was never a lack of women, but I went through 4 years of college and did not date or have sex with a single girl.

Why?  Although my outer self had changed, my inner-self had not.  I still looked at myself as the dorky little kid that everyone made fun of.  I kept saying that girls like that never date guys like me.

Now, fast forward...I am in my 30s.  I was working at one of the most prestigious law firms in the world.  I had a lot of things going for me, but even then, globally, I felt that I did not deserve the success I was having.  In addition, I still did not approach or date women. 

As I type this, although I look different on the outside, on the inside, I am still the little kid that everyone used to pick on and make fun of.  I am still the little kid who, due to the reason his parents treated him and the kids at school treated him, feels inferior to everyone else.

Due to my childhood and the way I see myself today, I am afraid to talk to women.  I only date women that approach me. I never approach women.  This is the biggest thing that is missing in my life right now.  I truly want to find the love of my life.

I dont want to see myself as the little kid.  I want to see myself as a bold and charismatic figure who can get any girl he wants and can accomplish anything he wants. 

In 3-5 years, I will be a bold and charismatic leader.  I will not be afraid to talk to women. I will not be afraid to talk to people. I will not be afraid to stand up for myself. 

I will be the guy I dream of becoming. The Clooney, Obama, Clinton type.   I am going to be a CEO and I will be a millionaire.

I will be married to a beautiful girl who will be my best friend.  Together, we will take on the world.