Hi all, My name is Nellie, I am currently 20

I have been known to be a little subborn at times but thats only becuz I am always right :) When Im not being stubborn I love to entertain people whether its making them laugh... singing, acting, dancing... or just being goofy. I have a humongous heart and want everyone to be happy all the time(which i know is impossible), and it gets very tiring at times... still i don't give up. I can be lazy at times... well not really lazy but i procrastinate. I know where i want to be in life but i have trouble making a move on things. I have just ended an incredibly long and dragged out relationship... i needed time to get things in order. Nothing bad about the guy he's an incredible person and we still talk here and there. All in all, I like to have a great time every day... I am very spontaneous but I also like structure at the same time... make sense?

and most of all I am looking foward to getting to know new people 

I've had a pretty normal childhood... with one exception. My dad passed away when i was 13 from cirrosis of the liver from alcohol abuse... I, not that i know of, do not have any substnce abuse problems fortunately. After my dads passing I fell into a depression(teen angst) for a little bit, and used unconventional ways to take care of the pain I wasn't letting out... When I met Andrew, who is now my ex, I fell out of the slump for the three years we were dating. Oddly enough now that we are broken up it seems things are getting even more out of hand... I sort of broke down did stupid things and was hospitalized.(not as bad as your thinking) which leads me to this site...my mother who is also a member recommended it to me as well as therapy, and i am hoping it helps... a positive attitude can get you anywhere, and your decisions put you where you are. Please don't think I am just a young angsy 20 yr old who doesn't know about life... I do and I've learned it the hard way. Now, I am making an attemp to get help and get better :)