I am the sixth child of eight. My parents divorced when i was six months old . I lived with my mother till I was 12 . then moved with my cousin until i was sixteen . I met my father when i was 7. I worked at a fruit market at sixteen  until I was twenty six , then went under. During that time i tried to go back to school. my father passed away when i was seventeen and I got left to pull the plug and the funeral arrangements. I met my wife in school. she got pregnant  a few weeks after we started dating and at eighteen we had our daughter. six months latter i lost my eye sight for 2 weeks . We got married the following year . When our daughter turned 4 we had our son . At twenty six i quit smoking after 14 years, got my highschool diploma and my first management position all in the same month. I worked for a leading grocery chain for the last seven years and worked all the way through the ranks to become a store manager. I recently lost my job because i could not make the the changes required by the company due to the lack of control and help from the upper management. since then I have lost my person    ,,,,,,, I refuse to allow myself to continue not enjoying the beauty of life. I have started new employment , but feel lost and do not communicate  . I want to be able to talk to dirt ,,,Be open friendly , be me again.A friend at my new job recommended this site. I stood out from my family because I will not allow myself to fail.