Sorting my choices and making the right decisions
Wed, Jul 04 12:00 AM
Every minute of every day I am faced with choices. Do I sleep in a little longer or do I get up and walk the dog? Do I have eggs for breakfast (with my high cholesterol) or cereal? Shall I watch the Price Is Right or listen to my two tapes on image and exercise. I can honestly say that it is almost impossible to make the right choices consistently without the constant reminder to myself of what I really want from my life. If I didn't have the affirmations on the wall to read, the tapes to listen to and the time to think hard about how far I have come and where I want to go next, it would be so easy to just suck my thumb like a little girl and ask for a cookie! Wrong! I am a grown up now, responsible for myself and for my growth. I want more from this life. I long for the respect of others and I need to have self respect. I love the phrase, "doing what needs to be done with courage and dignity. Lately I am finding it more difficult to keep up my level of exercise. Pain lives here and some days I am less able to ignore it than others. Still, I know in my heart that if I can just push past pain and do what I need to do, my strength will return once more. Today I skipped my treadmill and machines and did two long walks with my dog and an hour in the pool with weights instead...a little easier of me and I am hoping it will rest my muscles enough that I can resume my regular routine tomorrow. It's hard to cook right for myself alone. But today I made a pot of healthful vegetable soup from scratch and had a wonderful nutritious dinner so even though my husband will not be home until tomorrow night, I am taking care of me! It's nearly nine in the evening, time to go upstairs with my little dog. I think a long soak in the tub, some grapefruit body cream and early to bed is just the ticket. Sending love to all of you who have been so supportive and loving to me. Thank you so much.