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Birth Date: Wed, Feb 06 1974

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Denton TX, United States (map)

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Become a full circle
Stop making assumptions of what people are thinking about me.
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like who i am
have a better relationship with my husband
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Wow....I was so upset that I hadn't heard from my man while he was on his vacation. I made several assumptions, that lead me to question his commintments to me. We have been married for 17 years, have two great daughters and work well together as a team.

 

When he got home late last night from his dive trip at 1am I could tell something had him truly sad. He walked in grabbed me and just held me tight for a long time without saying a word. Turns out that one of the people in his group, died. The man had  problems early in the week, and Shawn pulled him out of the water.

 

Shawn was upset and still shaken by the whole situation. He cried in my arms and said, I cant imagine what his (the man who passed) wife is going through.

 

Apparently the man wasnt in very great shape, was a newly trained diver, and was very confident. Shawn and I are advanced certified and rescue / search divers. We know  our limitaions under water and respect them.

 

This event in addition to the day 25 lets talk about health has me ready to take care of myself. Just to see Shawn's pain....... i dont have the words.

 

At first when I started Tools, I thought hard about what my problems were and I OWNED them. I was aware of them and identified with them. As I am getting through this week, I think I am starting to get it. I know I have areas to improve on, but that doesnt define who I am. I will not identified with my problems, I will identified with my strength. I never thought that tools was a quick fix, but I did rush in with the 'oh yeah this the answer' - But that is one more lie, I am the answer. I have to set down my baggage, and walk away from it. I cant go diggin around and owning what is in there.

 

Humbled-

 

Otter

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Shane13 Shane13:

Revelation

Quite the inspiring revelation!!!  Keep up the pace.  :)

 

Thanks for blogging,

Shane13

DetonNation DetonNation:

Great Insight.

Thanks.

Mike 

dgauld dgauld:

holy cow!!

 

Wow..that is really sad. It sounds like you made a major breakthrough

otter otter:

broken pieces

I think i had to fall apart to put everything back in the right place.

 

And be humbled by something mortal that smacked me hard on the fore head.

 

 

Move on........

 

My reward for making in through this round of lay off's is me and my now 16 year old daughter are going to join the local gym!!