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Tue, Aug 11 07:48 AM

Intentions were good, the motivation was all wrong

 

Last night I went back a re-read my goals, read my past blogs. My original goals and issues appeared to be about me, but they were not. It would seem to anyone else that this was not the case, but when you lie to yourself in writing, the only one who knows is you. They were about others, be it my husband, kids, job, family, my body and relationships in general. I was working to make things easier and better for everyone and everything but me. If I could work to have a better relationship, a better body, be at peace then everyone around me would benefit. I just left me behind. So at day 42, I was like a half cooked meal, which was left to spoil.

 

Not that I am in position to give advice to anyone, but what the hell. Stop and think about the REAL reason you are here and please make sure it is for you. You are first. That is so hard for me, as it for many of us. I started this program with the goal of being better emotionally and physically so I would feel more loved by my husband. It should have been to feel more loved by myself.   

 

That is a folly and in direct contradiction with what coach teaches us. I couldn’t see the tree because I stood outside the forest, time to take a stroll in the woods.  

 

If I was as half as smart as I thought I was I would have been half as smart as I really was.

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DetonNation DetonNation:

Ahh So wise.... Ur (In little green Yoda voice)

That was an incredibly honest assessment of where you stand. Insightful and deserving. Filled with good intentions. Sometimes it takes years to come to important realizations... I think you havent missed the mark by as much as you believe though. They are all the things that are the most important to you in your life. If your attempt was to not change the way you live and to try and change other people, then you have become the wiser. Or if you tried to stuff yourself into an oddly shaped box because this is what you felt would make things smoother in your life, then you are the wiser. And you have learned a significant part in tools. A perfect example that its all about you is when I wake up in a dark mood, everything arrives to my senses, unpleasant, hostile, forboding. It has everything to do with you and loving yourself. And respecting who you are. Forgiving & Accepting. Wow! Those are some powerful statements and I appreciate your honesty.

Peace.

Mike 

empowering_myself empowering_myself:

So take the first step & give yourself a real hug!

It took me some time too to begin loving myself and miraculously, the world just joined in. LOL. cheers to You!

JEDITEECH JEDITEECH:

KNOW THYSELF!

Ahh, you are into the woods now! And that is a good thing. It really seems that you have been sitting in different chairs and truly seeing a new perspective.

 

You have identified some real feelings and issues, What is your greater opportunity? To find out more intimately what you really want for you, mabye?? Do not take away from yourself or put yourself down. YOU have really seen something here, take the realization and mould it into your vision!!

 

 

Lottsa respect for your realization!!!

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