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Wed, Aug 08 12:00 AM

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I haven't written for a few days. I try not to write unless I have at least something positive to say. I'm dealing with a lot   of issues right now. I'm having doubts about my  ability  to go back to work after being out of the job market and sick for some time. VESID, the agency that is supposed to aid me in a job search is a government -run agency, and usually won't support people who want to pursue the arts as a career. Also, if you have a psychiatric disability, they will usually not consider you for a high status, high paying job, especially if you haven't worked for awhile. My first step is just to speak to an eligibility counselor to see if an assessment of my abilities and training is even an option. Except for typing up my resume, my application is complete and I am just waiting to gather some legal documentation (birth certificate, SSI card, non-driver's license) before making the call to the eligibility counselor.

 

I'm also singing in two choirs starting in the fall, working out at the gym and taking Feldenkrais classes and probably taking some art classes so I have to fit in work between my artistic commitments. I'm not sure I can handle all of this and my art will always come first. I wouldn't want to be alive if I could not do my artwork and be me.

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Kayla Kayla:

One baby step at a time

Good morning.  I usually don't give advice, but a friend of mine goes to Arts Anonymous and is involved in a group called Underearners Anonymous, too.  I believe you can find info about these groups on the net.  From what I gather, the first group deals with how to live life as an artist and the second deals with how to live in financial reality, without giving up the vision of who you are and want to be.  My friend is a writer and comedian.  He has been working in a "B" job, which supports him financially, while working on his vision career.  He gets on the telephone meeting every morning, has action partners and is starting to see the fruits of his efforts.  I truly believe anything is possible with guidance and support.  VESID may be helpful in placing you in a B job, but given your educational background and talents, I totally understand your concerns about a fit.  There are other resources and options.  Don't give up your dreams.  Hold them out as your hope and remember that it's the Law of Accumulation that will get you there.

Love,

Kayla

MistyW MistyW:

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Well said Kayla!  PBH- just keep taking baby steps forward and one day you will look around and be thrilled by how far you have come!

 

It helps me to put a babystep on my TODO list every day so that I keep my goals in front of me.  Those babysteps add up!

You can do it, keep going! You can do it, keep going!

Mambo Mary 13 Mambo Mary 13:

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As a fellow artist, I HEAR you.  I am working a secondary job to pay the bills too.  I have always had to take other jobs to support myself.  What helps me with the secondary jobs is thinking of them as material for my art.  If I have a nasty boss, he becomes a villain in a short.  I think you just have to see the secondary jobs for what they are, secondary.  They do not define you.  Artists are born not made.  It is in are DNA and no job can define that.