Me Again?!

Bullying at work.

It seems to be a regular thing. 

I believe it reflects our whole culture. Might wins out over meek.  Strong over weak.  Survival of the fittest.  Fear over love.

Until we change it.

My work situation over the past year has involved some very cruel bullying tactics and unsafe scenarios for me.  I have ended up in mediation and have been slandered by others when I have stood up for myself and for what I think is right.  This is a familiar situation for me and I chose to use it as an 'opportunity' (thanks Coach!) to grow stronger, develop more skills and abilities, learn about the politics and way things work in the research world, share with others my experience and also to support others going through similar things.  All while LOVING the actual work and doing some great work too!

However, the most important thing I have learnt is this:  I CHOOSE what I experience.  No-one else has that power.  I CHOOSE to be angry, or sad, or joyful, or hurt.  Me.  No-one else.  And I choose whether I stay or go.  No-one else.  And I have the power to choose in such a way as to ensure I am looked after and I have the life I want.  I do not wait for someone else to do it- and no longer do I give others my power to choose.

Today was a powerful powerful reminder of that.  I was confronted again with the manipulative and underhand way my boss works.  I chose to deal with it publicly, professionally and head-on.  I was angry.  I chose to be angry and to use that energy to act in a powerful and constructive way.  It took me fifteen minutes to do this and then I moved on with my day.  I love it! 

We will see how it turns out.  I am not worried though.  Because whatever comes, I get to decide and chose what I do then.  So I won't worry about it.  Fagettaboutit!!!  HA!  

When I got home, I realised I was still carrying some of the anger, so I chose to do some constructive things to put it down and release it, so it would not fester and cause harm to me or my daughter. 

Then despite feeling a bit emotionally drained, I applied myself to our evening routine, got my daughter tucked up safe and sound in bed, got all the chores out of the way and then sorted out my finances!!  (As requested in tools).  All in between talking to two of my very best friends, who helped me to work through the anger and to lay it down.  Now I am doing this and I am energised again.  How magic is that?

It seems my dear friends, that this state of well-being and joyful awareness and excitement about life is here to stay.  Every time something like this turns up in my life, it takes less and less time to recognise it, deal with it, release it and move on.  Stronger, happier and better than I was before.

Unstoppable.

Magic.

Heaven on earth.

Huh.... who would've thought...?

Blessings!! xx

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