Starting over...

I am cheating a bit, as I just wrote this for my blog and halfway through I realised that this is a really big success for me, and one I am doing on a regular basis.  That is, experiencing a low/non-positive mood and then choosing to change it!  And what I didn't say in the following story is that one of the tools I have learnt here in TOOLS was a key technique in re-routing my day: to tell myself that my attitude is MY decision and I am deciding to have a GOOD one!!  I remembering thinking how NAF that sounded when I first read it, but by gosh it really works!!  :-)

The story again: 

One of my greatest stumbling blocks for myself has always been my anger.  I have been one of those people who rumble, rumble and then explode!!!  Volcano-styles.  Over the past few years, with a lot of attention and forgiveness, I am happy to say that it no longer operates on the great destructive level it used to.  However, today was a ghost of the old whispering through.  I was low, I was tired and I was grumpy.  I could feel that old familiar rumble and the day seemed greyer somehow.  I started examining the self-talk, especially after snapping at my daughter a few times on the way to dropping her off to school... I slowed right down my walking, resisted the urge to walllow in my guilt for snapping at Maia and started to ask myself how I could get back to the positivity I am getting so used to.  As I drove to work, I put on great boogie music and smiled and boogied in the and sang... I noticed the flowers on the walk to my office, I enjoyed the responding smiles from people I passed.  By the time I got to work, I was feelig pretty good again.  I clicked onto tools and did my gratitude challenge, giving thanks for my life as it is and Boom!!  I was back on track again!  Success!!

The rest of my day was as I have become used to.  An excellent research interview, a beautiful walk through our botanic gardens blooming with spring flowers, quality time with my daughter and her friend, and now I am enjoying a night to myself as she is having a sleep over.  How blessed am I?

Once again, I am astounded by where I find myself.  Our lives really are our own.  Every moment is ours to be how we want to be, and if the day is not going well, we get to start all over again at any given moment with a positive vibe.  How great is that?! Blessings to all!

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