My success story?

I believe my greatest success is that I am still here, living and breathing, and what's more, I am LOVING it!

The things I consider a success that I have accomplished in this lifetime are truly awesome!

My greatest one in my mind is this:  I walked a lot of my life in darkness, despair, suffering and unhappiness.  The abyss, the void was my home.  I woke up each day with dread in my heart and the world was gray.  I have been riddled with addiction, violence and misery.

Today I walk my life with joy and curiosity and love.  My hard days, my low days are uncomplicated.  They consist of sadness or grief or ghosts of pain/fear past.  They do not last.  Flashes of anger instead of volcanic destruction.  

I would have said that this state of being was impossible if you had asked me only 2 years ago.  And even 6 months ago I would have not believed how good things can be.  

I now want to share my experiences and keep working to help others realise their passions and their bliss.  I have realised through this tools course that I have been doing this for a long, long time- even in the midst of my despair.  I am excited to see what I will do now that I have moved some last great blocks of fear.  I feel that the path is clear now to be who I truly am.  I no longer find this daunting, I find this exhilirating!  I have committed to, and have accepted that this is one of the things I was born to do.

You know, all of this can be summed up very simply.  My first thought upon waking for the last week (even though some days I have been very tired as I have been working through some huge stuff) is "thanks for another beautiful day" and my last thought in drifting off to sleep is "thanks for yet another beautiful day".  And I feel this rush of amazing energy shoot through my body as I fall asleep gently.... that feeling is love and deep, deep gratitude.

To feel that feeling even once, let alone every single day, is my single greatest success in this life.  From this, all else flows.

Many, many, many blessings!

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