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I am a single guy who has just gotten out of the navy and is in the process of starting up my own company. About a year ago I broke up wiht my girlfriend of 2 years because i was to scared to get married. I have dated other since than, and have not found anyone near my ex. I have a lot of stress with my personal life and my carrer. I take that stress out in the gym, although wiht injuries that I got while in the military it prevents me from doing certain exercises. So I hired a personal trainer that I see 3 times a week to help me out. I used to see her 3 times a week, and I would go in on my own 3 other days. See I am a type A personality. I do not like to lose, I do not like to be wrong, I do not like to ask for help, I do not like to admit my weaknesses or appear weak. This is part of the reason why I would go to the gym so much. It has been about 6 months since I started with her, and I have calmed down a bunch. The next thing is that when I drink, I go crazy. Beyond what most peple do. I blackout, I threaten to kill myself, I start crying and I send the worst text messages to my ex girlfriend. My ex and I have stayed close friends because without having her around I feel like I have no one else to talk to. This past friday (3 OCT 08) I had another one of these breakdowns. I live alone so I left the bar and walked home. I was sending text messages to my ex and a couple of other friends reading 'Peace Out' and 'I'm done'. I was also sending messages to my ex saying 'fuk u n die'. Apparently I got home and a buddy of mine came over to check on me. While he was there I destroyed a statue that was in my place and I procedded to load a gun and point it at my head. I calmed down after a bit and passed out in my bed. The next morning....I remembered nothing. Anytime a person from my old command dies, I wish it was me. I feel like I am a coward for getting out because of my injuries and that I left my family to fight the fight that I should be in with them

 

I have heard on the Jason Ellis show about this palce, and if I do not do something about my life and get out of this downward spiral, I am going to lose everything. I need help!

I joined TOOLS because:
 I need to change my life from going in a downward spiral to going up and realizing that there is so much to live for.
You are offered your dream job. What job is it?:
 Being that lone hero that goes around the world doing secret operations but without any of the glory. Sort of like a James Bond guy.
My favorite wild animal is:
 I do not really have one that I can think of. A liger?
Why (describe as much as possible):
 I said a Liger above but that is just because I find it funny when it is in Nepolean Dynamite
My favorite domestic animal is (if you choose dog be specific with breed etc):
 Cats, any that have hair
Why:
 They are always there for you. You have to love them and take care of them so that they can live. No matter what your mood is, they will jump on you and lay on your lap. They go around and do what they want when they want and you have to deal with that.
A famous Chef will prepare anything you want. What do you order:
 A blackened T-Bone steak with green beans in garlic and garlic mashed potatoes amd a side of firend shrimp served in butter sauce
Why:
 Because it is a vbery tasty meal
Five people either dead or alive you would have at your fantasy dinner party::
 mom, Dave T, my birth mom, my godfather, my ex girlfriend
Why:
 Mom- She has done so much for me and I have not seen her in 4+ years Dave T.- He was a friend that was killed in the war Birth Mom- Ask her why she gave me up? And to see how she is doing and if I have any brothers and sisters Godfather- A paster and a great man that I have not seen in over 10 years. My Ex-I feel at ease and comfortable around her. I feel like she is not judging me and truly cares about me and will not leave me when I need her
If a pilot would fly you anywhere you want, you would go to:
 Home- To see my mom that I have not seen in years
My perfect slice of pizza is:
 Extra pepperoni and green pepers
You are at a bar. You order this drink:
 Usually a Bud Light with Jager Bomb shots
You are at a coffee shop. What coffee or tea do you order:
 I do not drink that, a red bull please
If a genie could grant you three wishes they would be (separate by commas):
 an infinite number of wishes, than I could have wishes for the rest of my life...but seriously....Put me and my ex back together, Make my company really sucessful, Make me forget the bad things that have happened in my life
You are going on a long road trip and you can only bring three CD's. Which ones do you bring (separate by commas):
 Linkin Park, Flo RIda, Red
If I could do anything for my neighborhood today, it would be:
 Add more parking spots
A sunset I remember:
 On the Kitty Hawk as we were out to sea
Any character I could be from a movie, TV show or book would be:
 Anyone on Amazing Race
Why:
 I would love to do that show and see if I have what it takes to overcome the obsticals.