Well I was really doing good here, got my morning checklist down, starting to work on me. Got resume on a web site, getting out a little each day --Now my ex of 8 years emails me, his things are still here, and we fought on email last week, this week he is being nice and there goes my strong will power that I don't want anything to do with him, oh well out the window it went! The man broke up with me via email after 8 years, and won't talk to me or see me to put closure on this for me!!I am trying to move on, but that quickly I crumble.....I had to share this so I can look at it and realize I let my self crumble, how do I stay strong??I thought I'd stopped crying, but the tears came out again..any advice I'd appreciate it!!
Not to get ahead of the program or anything, but I just read today about using the "Reverse Tool" before you take an action and thought that you could use it to apply to situations like this. You'll get to it and get a better explanation, but basically it is this. Before you make a decision, think of what the results will be. You have to be honest with yourself too. I am sure if you would have seen how bad it would make you feel afterward, you would not have given in to the feelings you had at the time. I know with relationships it is hard, especially when you are used to acting one way around a person and all of a sudden it changes. We can fool ourselves into thinking that this action will make it all better, but if we are honest with ourselves, we can prevent making mistakes that do not benefit us.
You are a strong, amazing person that is taking the right steps to move forward. Of course there will be places along the way where we have setbacks, but this is a 90 day program, so have patience and trust in the process. You WILL get to where you want to be! I have faith in you. You need to have that same faith in yourself and realize that you don't need that fool in your life.
(I know it's easier said than done, just trying to be encouraging!)