Today Is Going To Be A Hard One!

Tools for today has got me... well... I guess it's got my hackles up. I don't want to make excuses (but they probably are). I visit the dentist and optometrist every year. I take homeopathic remedies where I can. However, I take a lot of over the counter pain meds for chronic SI pain as well as the many headaches/migraines I get. I also don't get much exercise because of the SI problem (car accident while pregnant with the twins). I don't like doctors (really don't like them!) and I'm still recovering from my phobia of hypodermic needles. With my hiatus hernia going ballistic, I have been trying to manage my pain with homeopathic pain medicine. I've just this Christmas and in March had steroid injections in my SI joint to control the pain. Problem: the steroids have caused my immune system to crash and my hormones to go insane. Since the injections, I've had a period or PMS symptoms (one of which is a migraine headache for 2 days) virtually every 2 weeks. I say the pms symptoms because I had an ablation after the twins and my body shouldn't be able to produce that much lining anymore. I've searched online and these are side effects, tho not well known.

I'm waiting for the return call from the specialist to see if there is some way I can get around those. I suspect not. They also seem to be refusing to believe that they ARE side effects and want me to see a local doctor. Problem 2: the doctors in this small town of mine are about as useful as a wart on a frog's butt. I don't like them. I don't trust them. It makes me think of medieval times here minus the bloodletting to make you better. The specialist is 4 hours away from me and even the OB/GYN I had to deliver the twins (not in THIS town, buddy!!) is that far away. The injection has almost completely worn off and I'm betting my body goes back to normal over the summer (I've decided to deal with the pain instead of the injection for fear of getting something nasty when I visit my family in the city). However, this will be going against the whole visiting the doctor thing. Personally, I think some of the procedure doctors do unthinkingly, cause more damage to the body - in fact possibly contributing to the weaknesses that cause the diseases they're looking for. I trust my body, my knowledge of my own body, to tell me when something is wrong with me. It has never led me wrong. That's why I originally was going to go get checked out as soon as the weird hormone thing started. First I checked out side effects online: nothing. Then I correlated a more precise search and found many women with the same "weird" side effects as me. Guess what we all have in common?

Problem 3: weight and dieting. I know I'm "fat". I get it. I'm not going to have that anorexic 15 yr old body everyone seems to desire these days. I've had 4 kids, one of them a set of twins. My body has changed dramatically. What's even more, I can't exercise easily. Not even walking which is what I'd like to do. I don't eat like a saint, but I don't starve myself or ban myself from all food with taste. I don't believe in diets (as Garfield says, "Die with a T". I've researched that whole industry and it is nothing more than a humongous LIE. Yes, we need to eat more than a dozen doughnuts or KFC every day. Yes, we need to eat fruits/veggies. Yes, we need to eat meat and dairy. Sigh. I know this is going to probably get me ugly comments but whatever.

I know Devlyn didn't ask me to go on a diet. Only see a doctor and take a multivitamin (which I can't since the zinc makes me physically sick. I will take the vitamin c tho!) and eat healthy. But I see the signs of dieting and health coming and it worries me.

Holly Lisle says to write your heart and not mince words. So here are mine. *cringe*

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