I've been doing the TTL & PFR program & I am on day 36 of tools. I am finding that I am able to pull the strength from within to do the things I know I need to do, to build a better life for myself. I bought another scale so I could have some accurate measurement of how I am doing. The scale is not working, it said I was 129# which I know is laughable, I am much heavier than that! It's not a matter of numbers. I KNOW I am doing well with my food intake, and getting exercise, so it really doesn't matter what the number on the scale says, as long as I keep checking in with you guys & keeping working toward my goals this 90 days. I know I am going to lose weight, there is no way for me not to. Yesterday, I allowed myself to make excuses not to do anything in the p.m. (I did 30 minutes in the morning, so I told myself it was ok to skip the evening exercise); which will not give me a result of success, SO this morning I did an hour of aerobics. I was sweating my butt off, so I know I burned a few calories.
I'm dealing with personal family health issues. I have a sister in the final stages of MS. A brother in law who just passed away from MS. I have another sister who is fighting cancer. I have a Dad that had a stroke on Thanksgiving, and has basically thrown in the towel. He does not want to fight to improve, he does not want us to work to encourage him to gain strength & has basically told us to leave him the hell alone, he is not doing it anymore. It's hard to be upbeat, and keep the fire burning, but I am finding that in order for me to succeed with my life, I need to make ME the priority. Something I have never done in my life until now.
I am positive, I am energized, and I am able to take on the world. The above things have an emotional impact on me every day. Do I allow it to stop me? Do I allow it to affect me? Do I just throw in the towel, and say there is too much on my plate to do well in my life right now. HELL NO! I am in this for the long haul. By improving my health, my chances of having significant heart issues, cancer, or other physical ailments will be less. I will not have to deal with the things my family members are struggling with...and if I do, I will be stonger in my mind, body & spirit to continue to take on the world.
If you made it this far, Thank YOU for listening to my rambling about my internal fire.
I'm leaving you with a song...
Ain't nothing gonna break my stride,
Nobody gonna slow me down,
Oh no, I got to keep on moving.
Life is good!