This is my success story of my life and I´m really thankful to my higher power,which I call god as I understand him.
I don´t wanna bore you with my story of been drunk the years before 1979,when I was 29 and gave in drinking, no way.
I will begin with my life success story on that day mentioned above, when I got the mercy and chance to break the rules of drinking and smoking on the same day and what´s more counting at the same moment.It was the moment when I gave in and confessed to god and the world that Í was an alcoholic,an excessive smoker and addicted to all kind of mental and physical drugs one can think of. I confessed and gave in on the meeting that took place that day with AA ( Alcoholics Anonymous) and I was welcomed from that day on and every time I went there,my first sentence I sad was: I´m an alcoholic and I´m sober now and feel fine forf this reason only.
But to be true the real hardships followed then due to my bad physical and psychological situation I was in at that times.
I really needed help and support not only through AA groups,which I attended almost every day but I needed help through a group of human beings, who on their part had not only problems with alcohol but all other kinds of psychological drawbacks and obstacles.
I wen to a clinic in Germany,situated in the "Black Forest" and that place named Bad Herrenalb became the place where I was reborn or born again and here I learned the hard way who I was and who I should be or could be in real life.
3 months it took when I was confronted through all kind of psychological and groups training what it means to realize that I was a nil, a nothing, totally unable to live my life as a reliable and grown up person and to held the responsibility for what I´m doing and for what I´m not.
This process of being reduced to my real and normal "greatness"has been the key to give in and to seize the chance to build up or rebuild my life from the roots or from point zero upwards to normal and realistic self-esteem and self evaluation.
This school of life how I call it was a Leraning-Teaching-Profiting -Community of people with the same mindset and purpose.
They all,including me were thriving for a better life without being addicted to drugs or other deviations or abuse of drugs whether it be physical or mental ones.
I learned that there are so many ways and kinds of addictions,namley eating,drinking,sex,sweets,cars,Tv,work and you name it.
But for me the most convincing and best working method to learn to live and not survive is to accept that we are normal humans, who all have their own addictions and to overcome them successfully you have to accept first yourself as you are and then take baby steps forward and solving one problem after the other: FIRST THINGS FIRST, is my motto and god created the worldnot in one but seven days and so to speak: You and I have all the time it needs to change ourselves and the world will follow then :-)
Hope that helps as it helps me every day of my life.
