WELCOME--  my name is Ryan. I'm back into the website after doing the Tools program last year. In hindsight, its was one of the best things I did and part of me coming back is acknowledging that I've let my foot off the gas. This time I'm going to revisit a bunch of my older Toolbox exercises, but my big focus will be on the "get a new job" program. I currently have what most would feel is a pretty decent job, but I'm just not super into it and wonder if its a long term deal. I'll guess we'll find out.  

I realize there's totally a connection between me starting this and the new year upon us. Yes- I'm on the wagon big-time right now as it relates to fitness, job, and personal development stuff. I don't think its a bad thing. Just tired of putting stuff off or thinking I can only do one thing at  a time.

(Background- I sat on my ass SO much during the holiday work, I'm dying to do anything hands-on. Need to go to work, or the gym, or not be at home)

If you're reading this, good luck with your programs. Remember theres a lot of people on here that are in the same boat.  

I come from great roots. Family is unreal. Friends from all over- my small rural hometown, to sports, to university, to work.  

About 10 years ago, I ran into some health problems where I had the shit scared out of me. Big car accident almost got me once, then got delt a few bad cards healthwise. Don't get me wrong, I'm a pretty fit, and athletic guy but stuff like this does have a way of taking the wind out of your sails. I don't dwell on these conditions, nor i milk them for sympathy. I don't hold back on doing anything, however these experiences do make you look at things a lot differently. Am I that pumped to work more then a 40 hour week at a shitty job? No way. To summarize I don't too excited about anything. It might be mellowing with age, but it may also being how a person gains persective.

I've had some girlfriends. I'm with someone awesome right now and likely going to the next step, but still realize if something happened, I'd probably eventually be ok. This one is pretty cool so I'm not too worried about us seeing where things go.

Things I've learned: Relationships usually match where you're at in life, a job isn't who you are, and things aren't always what they seem. Sometimes things suck; sometimes they have a way of just working themselves out. I've learned to back away from situations inorder to see them more clearly. Sometime things that don't make sense suddenly come to you like a light going on.

I want a great life. I want to be around for great things in my own life as well as those of friends and family. Career is important, but whatever that is has to give me some sense of something bigger. Money's important but just a means to a better life.

I want to be as atttractive of a person as possible:

-the life I have

-the person I'm with

-the job I do

-the family I have

-the things I do

-the passions in my life

I care what other people think, but am more concerned about my own happiness and self image.

Time flies and life moves fast. I want to know I'm keeping up instead of just sitting around.