well i've never been the best at describing myself in a caption. in fact i feel very vulnerable doing so, but i'm hoping it's all part of the process. i've heard great things about this site and i'm hoping it helps. i don't know if everyone feels this way and i just think i'm special, but ever since i was young i always thought i was destined to do something great. however now i feel as if i've really plateaued in my life.

i don't know why i'm complaining, i'm recently engaged living with the girl of my dreams, in a gorgeous house on the lake, with a nice car and they are both fully paid for. i've got two cute cats lots of fun toys but i just feel like somethings missing. i'm just getting out of running my own business. due to certain economic situations i can't afford it anymore. the idea of going back to punching a clock is very daunting. however i'm looking forward to finding something that i enjoy doing and making a living at it. i always have enjoyed computers, IT work more or less. but when i was 20 i decided i wanted a career that made me a million dollars and IT work wasn't it, so i left it behind. now though i know you don't need a million dollars to live off of. that being happy with what you do is more important that what you're doing, as long as you can pay your bills of course ;)

i grew up in a dumpy town in central florida. i quickly found that i was just a little bit quicker and a little bit smarter than those around me. not to toot my own horn but i was pretty charming to boot. my parents didn't have a lot of money, we were lower-middle class. but needless to say things came pretty easy in my life, a little too easy. as such i never really had to try that hard, which sounds like a good thing, but it really tore my life apart. i feel deep into drugs and drinking, just doing whatever i had to to placate those around me.

right as i was about to bottom out my dad put the last little bit of credit he had to his name and got me into college. for that i don't think i'll ever be able to thank him enough. however while there i didn't really soak up the experience, as i was so busy drying out from all the drugs and trying to figure out my life. i still graduated top of my class though. i was all set to go to NY and follow my dreams!

i came back home to "save a little money" and just lost my fire. i mean i still am doing well, but just not like i could be. the only positive thing about it is that i met my future wife. a cute little english girl who liked to drink as much as i did. after a whirlwind of crazy love her parents got us this house and we settled in to what is now my current life.

i was tempted to leave this field blank. but i think that's part of my problem. i think i've always just counted on my charm and good karma to ensure that everything's gonna work out fine. and for the most part it has, but just barely. i hope to find my motivation, to work on my goals. i want to get in better shape, for my health and my self image, not to mention the wedding. i want to define what my career is going to be and have it fully support me. and i want to have some kind of spiritual life, whether it be a religion or just some kind of faith. i want to be traveling seeing the world, waking up in the morning and loving my life!