Day 3 by shannonw16 Self Directed Motivation Programs

Birth Date: Thu, Jul 16 1970

Place of residence:
seminole fl, United States (map)

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Member Since: 09/05/08
Last Login: 10/13/10
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Program Progress: Day 1

shannonw16's Challenges:

Organize Finances

shannonw16's Participating:

Hit Gym; Get Strong; Exercise; Lose Weight Phase III

house cleaning

Personal Interests:

Music:

I love jazz, funk, rock, rockabilly, classical, cajun, opera, and old country.

Books:

classics, mystery novels, non fiction

Favorite Places:

the beach, the outdoors, the library, bookstores, anyplace with a good view, a big city, a baseaball team

I Want To See:

Memphis, the Snake River, the Grand Canyon

Hobbies:

watching baseball, riding my bike, reading, cooking, being with friends

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Movies:

classics old black and white

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Areas In My Life I Want To Work On

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I Suffer From

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shannonw16's Life List:

I want to get out of debt, have a great relationship with my mom and daughter, get married, develop a satisfying career, make a quilt, do a triathlon and watch the playoffs.

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Day 3

I had to reschedule my Dr Appt - GRRR due to work stuff and in overwhelm mode. I am taking baby steps with the tools, doing a good job of logging in and checking in. I have already cut waaaayyy back on the drinking, which had been only on the weekend with my BF anyway, but now I am only sipping on a beer or two and a glass of wine. And same thing with the smoking, I am a closet smoker anyway, I like to smoke when I am talking on the phone with my friends and my BF hates it, most of my friends and family do not like it or know that I am doing it and my daughter if she sees me gives me the lecture and so I of course don't want to in front of her which keeps me from being able to smoke as much as I would like to. Not that I want to, only the people that know what it is like to have an addiction know what it is like, anyway, I have quit before and I am doing it now. I am down to about 1-5 a day. I was up to about 10 a day. This morning I ate a nice light healthy breakfast which is good for me, I am a breakfast skipper, and I actually got all of my vitamins out and organized them and made a big pitcher of decaf herbal tea to sip on throughout the day. It is now lunch time and I am warming up some leftover chicken breast to make a salad with instead of pigging out on some burger and fries or something unhealthy. I am really really struggling with the waking up thing. I have a hard time going to bed at a decent time and staying in bed and getting up at a decent time. My Doc gave me a light sleeping pill scrip it is so bad, I am the poster child for insomnia and have been for the past 13 years. It has got to stop now. Even when I was working out consistently and eating very healthy and did not have the BF issues, I had the racing mind issues. Or something that keeps me from staying asleep. Just 6 blessed hours straight would be wonderful. Well I am going to try it I mean DO IT tonight. In bed by 11, sleep to 6. Even if I have to take a pill, I can't wake up and do my clapping and affirmations if I am stiff and groggy on the couch having been up all night watching tv and running things thru my head.

Now I have to bite the bullet and call my office ( I work from home) and tell them I am having a great day and part of that is being behind on all my assignments and if you extend the deadlines another day I can catch up. Gee I want a cigarrette now.

Well at least I don't feel like I am sitting on a sea urchin anymore. Yeah!! I am going to eat healthy today, get hydrated, make the phone calls I need to, attack the pile of laundry and go for a walk with my daughter after dinner. Those all sound like Tools things.