On another note, I had an appointment today to get an eye exam.  Here is my story:

I arrived at the appointment a few minutes late but was greeted and told to fill out my paperwork.  After a short wait, the assistant called me to follow her.  I was directed to a small office where the assistant performed a few "prepping" tests.  She did a test which blows a puff of air into your eye; there was no warning from her that this would happen so when it did, I nearly jumped out of my skin.  She did the second eye and did warn me about the puff of air this time; HOORAY!  My next instructions were to follow her to an exam room where my eyes would be dilated with drops.  The assistant applied the drops and told me the doctor would not be long.  When the assistant left the room, I noticed they have a computer system with all my personal information up on the screen so that when the doctor arrives, it is all visible.  I thought this was a pretty nifty system; my other physicians still use paper.  Anyway, I digress....

Sorry!  The reason I am talking about this visit is because I have learned thru TTL that I am able to choose what is acceptable to me and what is not.  This is real power - I have never been told that I could trust myself or believe in my own power.  As a matter of fact, I have always been told the opposite.  It is SO exciting to be on this adventure where I can now have a say in how my life unfolds.  More than that, I not only have a say, but I can decide how I want my life to unfold and make that happen!

Back to the story.......

The doctor arrives to my exam room and the first thing he says is "It's been like Groundhogs Day around here, I havent stopped since I got here today." He, then, has me read an eye chart and tells me that I have no problem with distance because I am reading at 20/20.  Obviously, he was very hurried.  He asks "What can I do for you today?"  I told him that I work at a computer all day transferring data from paper to computer and it has been difficult for my eyes to adjust back and forth.  He then has me look thru a series of lenses and asks which ones are better.  He says he can do a prescription but I could just get reading glasses for a lot less money.  I told him I would be getting the eyewear free so I was not concerned about the cost, I just want to relieve the pressure I feel in my eyes while I'm working.  He then has me look thru the machine again and shines an incredibly bright light in my eyes, he tells me to look at his ear and be still.  Well, I blinked.  He became frustrated and said (in a very exasperated voice) "You're not holding it!".  He tells me that I have something something about a nerve in my left eye and that I should consider doing the Optomap next time.  He writes a prescription and says to me, "I am writing a script for .75 but you may already know, reading glasses start at 1"  He did not ask me if I have any questions, he very hurriedly told me to follow him and we went out to the waiting room where I was given the cost of my visit.  The Dr goes back down the hallway and all I hear is "You guys are killing me - speed and accuracy- we are going to work on speed and accuracy".  The Dr quickly follows out for the day.  As he is walking out the door, he says "I'll be back at it again tomorrow"  "Am I in at 11:00 tomorrow morning?"  The assistant, obviously, did not know the schedule so she hesitated.  The Dr then said "Dont worry about it, I'll just call in to find out"  I recount my experience in such detail, 1) because it makes me feel better to talk about it and 2) because there were several things that may seem small and insignificant but were important to me as the patient.  The bottom line is....when I left that visit, I felt angry, frustrated and dis-satisfied.  I didn't know what to do with
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I am very tired because I work two jobs and I was called in this past week on my night off.  It was difficult but I did it.  The only thing is my drawer was $18.19 short.  I was very disappointed because my goal is to ALWAYS have a perfect money till.  On average, I am about 98% accurate which I guess is not bad but when the manager came in for night close, I immediately told them, I am running about $18 short - so being the positive thinker I am, I said "Not terrible".  Well, the manager on duty said "Still terrible!"  I was mortified!  I said, "Well, it's better than $50 or $100 - the manager once again said, "Still terrible!".  My thoughts were @#$%^ BITCH!  (I have a very real problem with people who "power trip").  It just so happens, this particular manager is definitely "power tripping".  She has never been kind to me, she is a very negative person and it really, really iritates me!!!!  I know that I can't change people but it still makes me sick that people can't at least be kind.  My favorite quote is "The three rules to life are "Be kind, be kind and be kind"  I consider myself sweet and above all else, kind to others.  The reality is......not everyone is me.  I guess I have to remember this and live in reality instead of my own little "Pollyanna world"

Sounds like I am doing a lot of bitching today, but it feels good to have a place I can go to do it.  I know here at tools, I am not being judged, or graded, or whatever.  This makes a big difference for me.  Too bad I don't have any good friends who care enough about me that I could bitch verbally, but oh well; such is life. 

Until next time....Best wishes for success in your journey to change. 

My schedule is all messed up so I really consider myself just finishing Day 1 of the program.  But, no matter.....I am working it and it feels good.  Today I challenged myself.  I could look at it as a failure but I have decided to say to myself "Good try!".  Tomorrow I will try again.  I know that I am my own worst enemy so it is my goal right now, to fight the enemy and become my own best ally. 

I loved Day 2 Tools because it reinforced just what I knew I needed, but have not had the "guts" to do anything about.  

Train the Brain is awesome!!  I am very excited about this piece. 

Well, it's 1:00 AM and I still have lots of work to do.  (That's one of my issues).  I will be joining a time management group as soon as I get a little more comfortable. 

Well, until next time......Best Wishes on Great Days Ahead!!

My name is Sherry.  I have just joined Tools to Life.  This is amazing!  I am so excited to be on this new journey to change. 

This is just the kind of thing I have been praying for most recently. 

Thank you for having this site and for allowing it to be free!! 

I just talked with a person (Life Coach) on the phone today and I felt so discouraged and hopeless after our talk.  She told me that I would have to begin the program with therapy first and that insurance would not cover it.  She told me the costs would be $120/session.  Her next question was, "Can you afford this without insurance paying?"  I said "No." and that was the end of the conversation. 

I had been looking forward to finding a program that could help with my Emotional Eating Disorder and I thought that call was going to put me on the way to success.  After speaking with her, I said to myself, "I guess there's no help out there unless you have lots of money.". 

After this disappointing start to my day, I decided to not give up and search elsewhere (Thank you Google)

I started reading from a GREAT website: http://www.stevepavlina.com/

While reading, I saw the advertisement for Tools To Life.  What a blessing!!!!

Tomorrow, when I wake up I will be having a great day because I am going to take a deep breath, clap my hands and believe it to be a great day!  This is my first step.

I wish each one of you success as you begin your life change journey with Tools To Life.