Im 41 divorced 2years no kids 3 dogs have a job i love but my personal life is not great i find myself alone alot...My dad died this past April and i think its fucked me up more than i want to admit...Ive been drinking and partying way more than i should and getting hooked up with men who dont give a shit about me...ie come here with the thought that all that needs to change life is way to short to be alone and sad...

Decended from 2 alcholic parents a few alcholic grandparents an addict sister who is actually not doing bad now..its a wonder im not a lot worse than i am...i go from drinking too much to eating to much im aware why i do it to numb all of this bullshit..i have been exposed to AA and NA and all the normal support groups but the thought of walking into these places makes me skeeved out..My mom has 22yrs sober with the help of AA but she is a different person than me...