Forgiveness

 I always thought the hardest part of being my best self was to find out what it was that made me dislike myself. I thought if I could find the root of my inner angst that it would magically resolve itself. It turns out that is not the case. I have now recognized that I can not make people be what I wish they were. I can not make my parents be supportive and role models, I can not make people love me and I can not beat my head against the wall for things I have not done right amd I can't continue to hate myself for gaining 80 pounds in 5 years because I'm sad. But now I struggle with how to let these things go and how do I forgive myself for trying to make people be what they are not., including myself. How do I let all this go to start to like myself again? I never thought this would be the hardest part.

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