Overcoming Fear

The last few days have really opened my eyes to how much I have let fear of failure control my life.I got about 90% finished with the first short story I've wrote with the intent of publication and then just stoped. I couldn't bring myself to finish it so two days after the deadline I had given myself to finish I sat down and tried to figure out what was holding me up. My whole life I have let fear dictate my actions, as much as wanted to be a ballerina when I was little, I never took a class b/c I was scared of looking stupid. I never learned how to swim b/c I was scared that I couldn't. I was supposed to be in a national beauty contest when I was nine and wouldn't go b/c I was scared I wouldn't win and I didn't finish highschool b/c I was scared I wouldn't get into the college I wanted to go to. And here I am a grown woman scared to finish a story b/c I'm scared it won't be good enough to get published. So I sat down last night after I got the kids to sleep, read a few of the fear articles on here and got to work. I finished the story, finished the editing and this morning submitted it. While I was submitting it I was scared to death, and I don't mean a little scared, no I mean I couldn't have been more afraid if a rabbid rotweiler was five away from me and closing in fast. I did it though and ever since I have had this big cheesy grin on my face, not b/c I think it will get published but because for once I actually tried.

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