Broken Record - Story of my life
Tue, Jan 04 09:10 PM
I have always been one of those people who hates it when people blame their ways on their childhood. Funny thing is, I do it. Still to this day I hear the whole whoa is me complaint. I will never amount to anything. I'm never good enough. I'm always going to be unhappy with the way I look. I'm never going to get anywhere in life...
I'm so tired of this and no matter what I read, it doesn't go away. I have been very bad about TOOLS lately and never have I done the checklist. Maybe I should quit. Maybe I should start over. Maybe I should just come to terms with the fact that this is who I am and I'm never going to get better. There is a part of me that just finds that unacceptable...life has to be better than me constantly beating myself up and telling myself that I'm worthless and will amount to nothing. I really hate myself today, and most days lately.
I'm so lost - I don't know what to do. But I'm tired and would like a better me...but is it possible.